30 years and counting

Last week I had the doc appointment.  I knew he was going to suggest a hysterectomy and I was right!  I’ve finally stopped bleeding and feel like a normal human again.  There is no real sign of cancer, so there is no rush to get this surgery.  My uterus is large and they feel they will probably have to cut me open to take it out, instead of laperscopicly.  So, that will cause more recovery time.

I am going to wait and see what my body is going to do.  If I go through another month like last month, I will have the surgery.  I just can’t live like that.  We shall see...

In other news...

Bossman and I are celebrating 30 years of marriage today.

Seems like only yesterday!

Honestly, we have had an epic life together.  We’ve had our share of ups and downs, for sure, but seriously, I can’t believe how far we’ve come.  Just looking back on this blog makes me see how far we’ve come.  I wrote many a post on how poor we were, how terrible our cars were, how crazy my daughter was, I mean, it’s just crazy!  My daughter is a lovely married woman now.  Our financial situation is so much better!  We don’t have to eat top ramen for dinner anymore.  Our cars are, well lets just say, tomorrow, Bossman is picking up his exotic car.  Never in a million years did we think that would happen.

Life has blessed us beyond measure.  Sure it’s nice to have financial security, but my kids will tell you that they never knew how poor we were back then.  We had the time of our lives.  We had so much fun together, we still do.  Although Bossman has been very successful in his career, and that is a huge accomplishment, raising our kids to be amazing humans is by far our best and most amazing accomplishment.

What is the secret to 30 years, you ask?  A whole lot of luck.  We were so lucky to stick this thing out together.  Others may have given up.  For some reason, neither of us gave up. We were lucky to have such great kids.  We were lucky when Bossman got this job, 16 years ago.  The guy that hired him said that a resume’ like his usually ended up in the trash but for some reason he decided to give him a chance.  If that wasn’t luck, I don’t know what is.  There is also love.  There has always been a whole  lot of love in our family.  Also Faith.  We have our faith in God and our faith in each other.  Without those, we wouldn’t have made it.

So here we are, 30 years and counting. It’s been quite a trip and I can’t wait to see where else it takes us!

Happily married,
grace

TMI (or being a girl is hard!)

Life is never easy.  Just when you think you can relax and enjoy, something else happens.  In my case, it’s medical.  I got the results from all my scans and they came back fine.  Thank goodness!  Then, out of the blue, I start having a cycle. I haven’t had a cycle in a year and a half.  When I first got b/c I was placed on a medication to keep it away.  At the time (2010), I was told I would be on it for 5 years.  At about the 3rd year mark, studies came back saying that women had better success rate if they stayed on it for 10 years.  Awesome.  Meanwhile, every time I went for a pap they would tell me that my uterus was enlarged.  In 2017, my doc referred me to a gyro/oncologist because my hormones were really high, but I wasn’t having a period.  The meds I was on can cause uterine cancer.  So in 2017 I had a D and C.  They didn’t find much but some cysts and a fibroid.  No big deal.  By then it had been 8 months without a cycle.  Then in April of this year, I started bleeding.  Had major cramps for 4 days.  They did another ultra sound and everything was the same.  They said I could wait and see, or have a hysterectomy.  I chose wait and see.  They also said that if I got off the meds, it might help.  So in June, I stopped the meds.  I had been on them for 8 years.

Since then, there have been no problems until...

In November I had slight spotting.  December, I had spotting for a little longer.  January, I had an actual period. February, I have been spotting and bleeding all month.  Then last Tuesday I woke up with horrible cramps.  I still have those cramps.  First part of the month, I just spotted, a week ago Wednesday I started bleeding like a regular period.  Last night I started heavy bleeding.  Today I’m laying in my bed, trying not to move, changing my tampon and pad every 30 minutes, cramping like a champ. (I warned you this post was TMI)

Don’t worry, I have a doc appointment on Tuesday.

This is going to get better...right?  I mean, I really don’t want a hysterectomy.  I can barely make it to the doctor without having a panic attack.  I swear, I just want to live my life without health problems!

I will say, Bossman has been the real hero in this situation.  Honestly, he’s always the hero.  He really takes care of me.  I am extremely lucky.  He brought me flowers and cake yesterday and he’s doing laundry and chores.  He’s going to the store to buy me tampons later and that, my friends, is a real heroic man!!!

All I know is being a girl SUCKS!!!!!

Crampily yours,
grace