10 things

I took a look at my blog today and realized it looked like an Easter egg threw up all over my screen. So I changed it to the boring look. I just don't want to mess with it right now. All the templates are boring. Maybe the New year will bring New inspiration. Maybe.

I know this should be a New Years post. But since I haven't really celebrated the holidays in a normal fashion, I figured, Why start now?

So instead I give you the top 10 things that make being sick during the holidays worthwhile.

1. Instead of going to my MIL's house for Thanksgiving, I got to go to the Urgent care who immediately sent for an ambulance to take me to the hospital. I'll do ANYTHING to get out of going to the MILs house.

2. Spending the next 2 days in the hospital, was a nice relaxing way to spend the Thanksgiving weekend. I didn't have to brave the after thanksgiving sales, I didn't have a ton of dishes to do and I didn't have to get sick of turkey!

3. Being waited on hand and foot by an extremely worried husband is a wonderful way to be sick.

4. Having said worried husband take showers with you, wash every part of your body including your hair, while all you do is stand there....is there anything better than that? (oh yes, he was there for almost every shower....what a MAN!)

5. Your very worried hubby then blow drys your hair for you so you don't have to lay down with wet hair. Did I mention I've never been so pampered.

6. Being sick is a great excuse for getting out of anything. Christmas cards? Sorry, too sick. Boring Christmas parties, again, too sick.

7. Did I mention no christmas shopping? I only stepped into 2 stores this christmas. The crowds were mean.

8. Everyone came to ME for the holidays. No driving around to everyone house for Christmas eve and Christmas day....they all came to ME!

9. No work for me. No cooking, no cleaning, just sitting on the couch watching old christmas movies. Sounds fun huh? Well, it was fun for about the first hour, then it was just boring! And the not working part....not as easy as it sounds people! I had to watch as things were NOT done the way I would have done them....oh wait, this is suppose to be GOOD reasons....sorry.

10. The best reason of all is all the wonderful comments and e-mails I received from all of you. I've said it before, and I'll say it again, YOU guys are the BEST! It really cheers a person up to know they are being thought of and prayed for! From people that just know me from the blog...how GREAT is that?

So, there you have it. I just KNOW you all are jealous now! I know you all wish YOU had been sick over this holiday season. What? You don't? Well, I don't blame you, cuz frankly it was miserable. But if I had to be sick, I wanted to make sure and point out the good parts, because the reality is, this was a hard list to come up with. I could have come up with 50 bad things. But I didn't want to bring you all down. See, how nice I am? I'm always thinking of you guys.

BTW, the fever returneth. But I'm ok. And next year....things are gonna be so much BETTER!!!!

later........

Too long

5 days without a fever...it's party time!

It's been too long since I've looked at my blog. It's been WAY too long since I've talked about spanking. Actually, it's been WAY, WAY too long since I've gotten a spanking!

So, I guess this means I'm feeling better. I mean, when your sick and feverish, spanking just doesn't cross your mind. Now? Now I keep wondering how long it will be before I get a spanking.

Here's the low-down. Bossman had a birthday on the 29th of Nov. We had sex that morning. Somehow I managed to pull enough energy out of my body to have sex. That really was my present to him. Since then....NOTHING. Well, let me back track a tad. We did have sex a couple of days ago. So, we went almost a MONTH! A MONTH people. I haven't gone that long without sex since I had my babies.

Now, what about spankings? NONE. Nothing. Zero. NADA.

Spanking has been nothing but a distant memory. A memory of better days. A memory of days when sickness didn't prevail. Ahhh, thank god for memories!

Now, there was one little spanking highlight. 2 days before Christmas, I actually ventured out of my house. Since it looked as if the fever would pass me by, I took full advantage. Bossman took me shopping. We went out about 9:30 at night, hoping to avoid the crowds. Didn't work. Crowds were everywhere, and for the first time in a month, I felt like a normal person. We decided to head to the 99.cent store. It is really a great store, and you can get GREAT stuff there. I was on the hunt for stocking stuffers.

One thing you should know about this store. It is a GREAT place to find spanking implements. Bossman never misses an opportunity to look at all the kitchen stuff, just to find the perfect spanking toy. This trip was NO exception. Bossman found a wonderful little wooden spatula thingy. It has a nice rubber handle, but I'm not sure about the slats. Actually, upon second look, it doesn't look that fun. But at this point, I'll take anything. Even a swat will do.

Well, here, just take a look at the picture. Doesn't it look scary?

So, lets keep hoping the fevers stay away. I'm looking forward to a very healthy 2007! With lots of spankings! And sex. And cheetos. And.......

later.....

Update: I must have jinxed myself because last night I got another fever. Not bad, but still. I'm waiting on the doctor to get a test result back, but so far nothing has come up. See what happens when I start thinking about spanking???

zzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I couldn't possibly forget about Gratitude Tuesday, seeing as how it's the last letter and all. But....

I've been having a really hard time finding anything to be grateful for, other than Bossman. (ok, the kids can be in that catagory too!)

It's very hard to find things to be thankful for when you can't really do much. I haven't sent out Christmas cards, I haven't baked a thing. I haven't even bought a single present. This has been the most UN-christmas I've ever experienced.

Ok, don't feel bad for me. We aren't totally in the dark here. Bossman got the tree, the kids decorated the tree and the house. Bossman has done some shopping, (thanks e-bay) although even that is a challenge as things are getting lost in the mail.

So, I finally realized something, while watching the Grinch. Christmas is going to come. It will be here in less than a week. It will come whether we have packages, ribbons and bows. It will come whether we have tinsel or turkey or cookies. Christmas WILL come. It will come whether I am sick or well. It will still come.

So, Today, The Day to be Grateful, I am grateful for Christmas. I am grateful for the family I have. I am grateful that it will come whether I want it too or not. Nothing else matters. The cookies don't matter, the gifts don't matter, the tinsel and the turkey, DO NOT MATTER!

Really, it only matters that I am here, with my family, on Christmas. And for that I will be forever grateful!

Oh yeah, the letter is Z, so here is my very short Z list.

zebras
zingers (yummy)
zippers (always helpful)
zzzzzz (if I get a good night sleep, I'm deeply grateful.)
zipidy do da...zipidy day, my oh my what a wonderful day, plenty of sunshine headin my way, zipidy do da, zipidy day!
zoinks (Scooby doo and Shaggy were always a favorite of mine)
zest
zip (oh how I'd love to get my zip back)


Have a wonderful Z day, and hug your family for heavens sake!!!

later.........

Meme

The phone rings. Who do you want it to be? Bossman or my friend, A.

When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Nope, I'm lazy. I find the nearest place to park it where it won't roll. (I know, I'm a horrible person!)

In a social setting, are you more of a talker or a listener? Both

Do you take compliments well? No, but I'll take one from Bossman anyday!

Are you an active person? I try

If abandoned alone in the wilderness, do you survive? If we are close to the Hilton, I'll survive.
Do you like to ride horses? sure, the ones on the merry-go-round.

Did you ever go to camp as a kid? Yes, loved going to church camp!

What was your favorite game as a kid? Operation

A sexy person is pursuing you, but you know that he/she is married, would you? Of course...the only sexy person persuing me would be Bossman, he is definately married!

Are you judgmental? I'd like to say I'm not, but I think I am more than I think.

Do you like to pursue or be pursued? Who's pursuing? If it's the police, no thanks, if it's Bossman...good ahead, make my day!

Use three words to describe yourself. fun, serious, sick

If you had to choose, would you rather be deaf or blind? It would be hard to be either, but I really would miss the sounds of the world, mostly music, so I would rather be blind.

Are you continuing your education? I like to think that I learn something everyday.

Do you know how to shoot a gun? Water guns are my speciality.

How often do you read books? Bossman would say TOO much...I LOVE books! I LOVE reading!!!

Do you think more about the past, present or future? The here and now, thank you.

What is your favorite children's book? Guess how much I love you.

Have you kissed any of your MySpace friends? Yep, most of my friends on myspace are family.

How tall are you? 5’10”

Where is your ideal house located? On the Beach

Boxers, briefs, thongs, panties, or grannies? panties

Last person you talked to? Bossman

Have you ever taken pictures in a photo booth? Who hasn't?

When was the last time you were at Olive Garden? 6 months ago.

What are your keys on your key chain for? The house, my car, my church, my bedroom door, my fireproof box.

Where was the furthest place you traveled today? My sons school, about 1 mile away.

Where is your current pain? in my chest.

Do you like mustard? Yep, love mustard!

Do you prefer to sleep or eat? I prefer eating in bed.

Do you look like your mom or dad? My mom

How long does it take you in the shower? As long as the hot water lasts

Can you do a split? I can do a mean banana split, with whipped cream and cherries.

What movie do you want to see right now? The Santa Clause 3

What did you do for New Year's? pig out, watch Dick Clark, and play games with the kids.

Do you think "The Grudge" was scary? Hate scary movies.

What was the cause of your last accident? A truck rear-ended a car who then rear-ended me! ORRRRR....Yesterday I knocked over the tv tray holding my glass of oj and it spilled all over the floor. I was definately the cause of that one!

Happy Birthday Friend!



Count your age by friends
not years,
Judge your life by smiles,
not tears!

LOVE YOU!
Grace

Blogger is being a PIG!

A good friend e-mailed me, to tell me that blogger was being a pig. Actually, numerous friends e-mailed me with similar responses, but I like the pig one the best! So most people had to e-mail thier comments on the Why post. Thanks everyone for your comments!

I hate talking about my illness all the time, so I will try not to bring it up to much anymore, but I just wanted to give a small update, so you will know where things stand.

I feel WAY better than I did last week. I had lots of pain, couldn't sleep or eat. At least this week I can do those things. Be grateful for eating and sleeping.

I'm still fighting something though, and the doctors don't know what it is. They have ran just about every test in the book, from thyroid to diebetes, but nothing has turned up. I'm still on some heart meds, to keep my rate from skyrocketing. But everyday I run a fever. Today, I'm at 101. But the fever is like some yo-yo over which I have no control. I'll wake up feeling ok, normal fever, thinking, wow, I'm finally getting better, to an hour later having a fever of 101. 3 to 4 hours later, my fever will drop to normal, or below normal. Somtimes as low as 96. I don't know what to think of all this. I've never been sick like this, and the unknown is a scary place to be.

Anyway, this is the update. I think I will try to put things on this blog that have nothing to do with sickness for awhile. As soon as I find out what the problem is, or as soon as I go a couple of days with no fever...You all will be the first to know. So the posts may not be as many, but I hope to be a little more upbeat over here. They say laughter is the best medicine, so maybe if I just put my mind to upbeat things, I'll feel better. Again, thanks for all the support! You guys are the BEST!

later......

whY?

I'm hoping today is the letter Y. Even if it's not, I'm going with it because it just seems it fits.

The last couple of weeks have really taught me some very valuable lessons. I've never been so sick in my life. So most of the time I kept asking myself why.

Why did this happen to me?
Why did this happen now?
Why did my children have to go through this?
Why did Bossman have to be so scared?
Why couldn't I just get better?

The last why is the easiest to answer because today I'm feeling much better. The road to recovery will be long but recovery is what it will be.

The rest of the whys, I can't answer. I don't know why this happened to me. I don't know why it happened now. I don't know why the kids or Bossman had to deal with this. But I do know something.

It doesn't matter. It happpened. It could have been worse. But it wasn't. The truth of the matter is, I have been humbled. Being unable to care for yourself or even make a decision for yourself is hard. I have learned that my husband loves me no matter what. He will do anything possible to make me happy, better, comfortable. I believe my husband would sell his soul for me if he had to. That is a powerful thing to realize. I don't believe I am worthy of such love, but I won't question that love ever again. So "why", for me, doesn't really matter anymore.

But I am grateful for "why". If I hadn't wondered why, I may not be the person I am today. If I had taken things for granted, instead of asking why, what kind of person would that have made me?

I will probably always ask why. I know, I just said, why doesn't matter anymore. And for now it doesn't. It doesn't matter why my husband loves me, he just does. It doesn't matter why I got sick, it just matters that I am getting better. It doesn't matter why my children had to go through this, it will make them stronger people and maybe they will appreciate things more. (I can hope, right?)

Maybe for this day, set aside the why. Just enjoy the because, and leave it at that.

Oh, just thought I'd mention, I REALLY love candied yams . The song Yesterday, by the Beatles, really got me through this sickness. The color yellow is a happy color. Yoodlers make me smile. Anybody remember Yertle the turtle? Spankings are yummy, but IV's are yucky!

Last but not least, YOU ! Thank you all again for your love and support during this very diffcult time. I've read all the comments. I've read all the e-mails. They have made me smile. I've had people that I didn't even know read my blog send me well wishes. For this I am eternally grateful! YOU are the best Y of all!

later.......

Still alive, but not up to kicking yet!

Thank you all for your good thoughts and prayers. Bossman is taking extra special care of me. Still not sure what the prob is, but today is a good day, so we'll just go with that for now.

As for this post, I wrote it about 2 weeks ago, when I was having a good day! It's old and most of you probably won't even know what it's about, but hey...it's all I've got, and it's the thought that counts right?? If your still confused, read this, it might clear things up!



Last week, in my feverish haze, I had a crazy dream....

It was WEIRD.

See, Elis and Theresa and I were at Pauls. That's right...Pauls.

Elis kept muttering how she wanted a crop and she gosh darn better get one for christmas or Nick was going to be in big trouble. I'm not sure why, but Theresa was going around spewing coke on people. Remember, I had a fever.

Meanwhile...

I was trying to give a blow job to someone, but when I realized it wasn't Bossman, I pushed him down the stairs. I didn't realize I could be so mean, but if I decide to give ANYONE a blow job then Bossman is the ONLY guy I'm giving BJs to. Thank goodness this was only a dream. And frankly, bj's only happen in Bossmans dreams, so that was just strange.

I was wandering around Pauls place looking for Eva and Tiggr. I mean really, what's a party without those two gals? Elis informed me that Eva didn't come. I was really upset that she wasn't there. How can we have a party without her? Elis was keeping her informed by e-mail, but really, how can you truly have a party if one of your best buds isn't there???

Next thing I know, we are heading to Shy's house. Now, I don't know Shy very well, so I really didn't know what to expect. Once we got to Shys she started taking a survey. It was all about floggers, crops and paddles. I really haven't had any experience with any of those things and so I just sat back and listened.

Well, it wasn't nearly as exciting as I thought. There were no spankings. What a rip off! It was just a bunch of questions! Who likes this...who likes that...who likes both...who likes all of the above...blah blah blah....

This was beginning to sound like a freakin math equation! I couldn't believe I was dreaming about MATH! My fever must have really been HIGH!

Anyway, all I know is that there were alot of people at the party. There were no spankings, and frankly I don't even remember there being any snacks! Seeing as how I was trying to give someone a bj...this was really a NIGHTMARE!

Next time I decide to have a party with you guys, I don't want any mention of blowjobs...I want lots of snacks..cheetos are my snack of choice (although at the moment cheetos and all other high salt foods are strictly a no-no) and for heaven sakes lets have SPANKINGS!!!

As for Eva, she better be at the next party, for I need her there when things start getting mathy.

later....

sick of being sick

Yep, I'm still sick!

My heart is better it seems, but I'm still fighting some sort of infection that nobody can pin-point.

The docs are baffled.

I am just SICK of being SICK!

The worst part of this pity-party is, I can't even have cheetos! (too much salt)

So, let's review...

I can't have cheetos...

Nobody knows what I have....

I'm still sick...

Yep, that about covers it!

later......