slump

I am in a big slump.

I am not happy, and I don't know why.

I have everything a person could want or need. I have a very sexy, loving husband. I have 2 healthy happy children. I have good health, and I have a roof over my head, and too much food for my belly.

So whats not to be happy about?

As much as I hate to admit it, I think it has to do with spanking. (I know, I said it!)

Ok, so there hasn't been any spanking going on. And I haven't said anything. I just don't want to be the one to say anything.

I know, I know, I should say something. But heres my take on the whole thing. (not that you asked, but hey, if your reading, you asked!)

drum roll..... I can't make him the way I want him.

I know, your shocked, but it's true. I can not make him spank me. If I try, it will be forced. It will be fake, it won't be real, and frankly, I want the real thing or nothing.

I don't want to force him to be something he's not. I could never do that to him. It's just not fair.

So, I've decided, if it happens, it happens. If not, then I have to deal with it. I can't let it run my entire life. My life is too good to waste worrying about whether or not I'm going to get spanked.

At least that's what I keep telling myself.........

later......