mind wanderings...

So, I'm on my way to pick up my son from school. I'm listening to the radio. Of course it's country music. A song called, "There is no Arizona" comes on the radio. I immediately think of Todd and Suzy.. Doesn't everyone think of them when thinking of Arizona?

Anyway, as I was thinking of them, my mind wandered to something they mentioned in a post a while back. Can't remember exactly what the post was about, but the part I remember mostly is them talking about finding a spanking partner. I believe they mentioned that they had looked or were looking for someone to talk about spanking with, or meet...something like that. Now, I would go back and look for that post, but that would require me to actually work, and I'm way to tired for that, plus I'm trying to show you my train of thought.

Suddenly I was thinking about what it would be like to actually talk, real life talk, about spanking. As I was pulling up to the school and waved to some of the mothers and such, I wondered what it would be like to have a friend that you could actually talk about spanking with. I mean, face to face spanking talk. This led me to think about the fact that I've NEVER told another living soul about spanking in my life, except, of course, Bossman. Talking to Bossman about spanking has become easier, but it's still hard to look him in the face when talking about it. In fact, the only other people that I talk to about spanking are on this site. And I don't have to look any of you in the face when discussing spanking.

In some ways, I think it would be great to have someone to talk with about this stuff. In other ways I don't know that I could actually do it. I have a really GREAT friend. I tell her everything. We talk sex, we talk about our kids, we talk about everything and anything. BUT, I would NEVER, EVER tell her about the spanking. I just couldn't. I'm not even sure how she would take it. I couldn't risk my friendship over this. So I will never tell her.

That brings me to the next thing that popped into my head. I started thinking about the rest of you. I wondered what it would REALLY be like if we could all get together. Would we all be shy? Would we immediately start talking about spanking? Would we find other things that we have in common?

That brought me to thinking about my REALLY good blogging friends. I won't name names, but there are a small few of you that I actually e-mail. I keep in touch with. I tell you things that I may not have said in a blog. I have told you my problems, my fears, and other things. We've talked about lots of other things and most of the time it's not about spanking at all. I may have even exchanged a picture or two with these few people.

Then I started thinking about one of my dear blogging friends. One of the few that I shared pictures and such with. Now I'm not one to share personal stuff with people I don't know. I am extremely cautious when it comes to that. I know I lay it all out on this blog. But I try to keep it private. I try not to let out our identities. I don't want anyone in the "real world" to find out what I'm talking about. Oh sure, it's not even that bad. I'm sure nothing would happen if someone did find it, but it never hurts to be cautious.

So, back to this blogging friend. A couple of weeks ago she gave me her phone number. Now, I trust this person. I've told her things that I would tell my best friends in real life. But I haven't called her yet.

As I sat in the car, waiting for my son, I wondered if I should give this friend a call. Curiosity killed the cat, and it is killing me. I would love to call but I haven't because I just don't know what I would say.

Which brings me back to Arizona. Not really, just thought I would throw that in. But it does bring me back to wondering how we would all be like if we really met. I feel like I would be too shy to even look any of you in the eye. I've shared so much of my inner most personal feelings on this blog. You would know things about me that my "real life" people wouldn't know. Would talking to you all in real-life be awkward?

Well after pondering all those thoughts, my son got in the car. My mind shifted gears as I talked to him about his day. But part of me was still pondering all this as the rest of the day progressed. Usually the song sticks in my head all day, this time, it was what the song made me think of that stuck.

So here I am, telling all of you what I thought about today. Some of you may have met or talked in person over the phone. So tell me, how was it? Was it weird? Did you have anything to talk about?

Tell me your experiences with this. I know you all will have great insight for me.

You always do! :)

later......