Last week was a pretty good week. Bossman came home 2 times that week and decided spankings were in order. We can't seem to figure out how it's all going to work in our relationship right now. But at least I got some. At this point, I'll take what I can get.
YES, he tried out the brush. Really, it wasn't so bad. I don't think he used it to his full potential. That's fine with me. He really LOVES the backscratcher, which I hate! We have a lot of different things he could use, but he always ends up using the one I don't like. Why? He tells me it's one of his ways to have control.
We've been talking a lot about control. Seems that topic has been coming up a lot around here. Seems I control a lot more than I thought I did. That is a big issue with both of us. Neither of us has figured out how to control our control issues. Does that make sense? I need to figure out how to give up control, and he needs to figure out how to take more control. Sounds a lot easier than it is.
Guess what I got in the mail the other day? It's purple, rubber, waterproof, and it takes batteries.
Doesn't THAT look like fun?
Bossman gave it a try on my today! It's HUGE! But it vibrates at different speeds and it actually was quite stimulating! I had one of the best orgasms! I just need to think of a good name for him. I have a feeling he and I will be getting quite close!
ANYWAY! Baby is doing great. Always fun when there is a new little one around. REALLY fun when you don't have to stay up all night with the little one! I remember those nights well and I don't envy the mommies that have to do that now.
Not sure what is happening with the father person. I heard he came home from the hospital on Friday, but I heard he has a long recovery ahead. I can't call right now. He can't talk and I don't know what to say, so for now, I'll just wait and see what happens.
You remember when I said I was letting go of the anger? I'm still working on that.
later.......
Grace, control can be a very difficult issue, it needs to be sorted if the D/D is going to work well.
ReplyDeletePersonally I think it's a matter of trust.
That toy looks like fun.
Let go of the anger if you can, you'll find that stress levels will drop.
Warm hugs,
Paul,
You remember when I said I was letting go of the anger? I'm still working on that.
ReplyDeleteYeah; that kind of thing goes back and forth for me too. I think I've got it down and then POW! It shows up again.
Same for control. I thought I was doing pretty good lately then Dan asked me yesterday (in front of people at the pool we were at, yikes!) if I was done controlling him now or what? I can't even remember what I'd said, but it was a series of things all day, about where to park and how to drive and something at the pool (more sunblock? dunno) and I was just...augh!
It's a work in progress. :)
Grace~ You look really, really good in purple!!!
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Eva
First off give Bossman control of the different speeds on your new purple people eater! That's a good start in giving up control!
ReplyDeleteI have another great nephew on the way. I am very in between right now, I do not want a baby of my own and I sure don't want grandchildren for another decade. The great nieces and nephews will have to do!!
Hugs,
PK
I really think that control is in the eye of the beholder. I often used to do things that I had no idea were controlling until D pointed them out to me, LOL. It's just in our nature, I think...
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Reesa
Babies, brushes, and vibrators! Great reading!
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Theresa